| What is this annoying, insidious angst
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| | degree, period! And yet, I have trouble
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| that permeates my psyche? In all other
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| | applying that philosophy to myself.I
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| regards, I'm a moderately confident guy.
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| | guess I have been slowly improving.
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| I'm secure in my abilities to be a good
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| | Having taken part in an author's fair,
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| father, husband, employee, friend,
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| | having been called a "local author" by
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| gardener, etc. And, heck! Lots of folks
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| | newspapers and radio hosts, having been
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| tell me I'm a good writer. I'm passionate
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| | dubbed "Genesee Valley Writer," has
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| about my writing. I consumed by my
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| | helped. As I receive more and more
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| stories. I can't stop, can't envision
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| | reviews from strangers (those who don't
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| life without it.Yet, I have this
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| | "have" to tell me I'm good), the anxiety
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| persistent fear that I will be "outed" as
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| | has lessened a tad. But still, each time
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| a fraud by the next highbrow literary
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| | I know someone is reading the book, this
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| critic that comes upon my work. Even
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| | annoying worry niggles around in brain.
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| though complete strangers have given
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| | Will they like it? Will they see through
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| surprisingly glowing reviews to my first
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| | me and spotlight the flaws? Will my
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| (and worst) book, even though my readers
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| | still-fragile author ego be smashed?It's
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| tell me otherwise, I can't get over the
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| | so silly. I really hate it. I have to
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| fear that a "real" writer will some day
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| | stop caring that when I've bared my soul
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| come along and renounce me, sending
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| | to the world, it might get trounced on,
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| banishing me into the netherworld of faux
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| | smashed, and spattered with criticism. I
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| writer fools who tumble around with
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| | guess it's time to admit... I am a "real"
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| ridiculous stories and are woefully
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| | writer. And that's a step in the "write"
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| inadequate when put to the task.I know
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| | direction.Aaron Paul Lazar
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| it's absurd. I've told friends, many
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| | Paul Lazar resides in Upstate New York
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| friends, who write beautifully, that they
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| | with his wife, three daughters, two
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| are writers simply due to the process. If
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| | grandsons, mother-in- law, two dogs, and
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| it's in your blood, if you can't stop, if
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| | three cats. After writing in the early
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| your day is filled with the details of
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| | morning hours, he works as an
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| the next chapter, if you write for
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| | electrophotographic engineer at NexPress
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| therapy, then you are a writer! You don't
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| | Solutions Inc., part of Kodak's Graphic
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| need a degree in English Lit or
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| | Communications Group, in Rochester, New
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| Composition to qualify. Heck, my degree
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| | York.
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| is in Engineering. You don't need a
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